sad day

Morning everyone.

I am hardly in the spirit to claim this morning is a good one. I happened to see one of my good friends from college on facebook chat this morning, while I drank my much needed cup of coffee and ate a doughnut that was quite the contrary (absolutely unnecessary). I was in a decent mood for a Monday, so I i/med her with a now completely inappropriate "HEYYY WOMANNN." She was one of the first girls I met in college, a sweet-faced, floral printed, big colorful earring-ed-type. She was (and still is, of course), amazingly intelligent, and has a keen eye for literary criticism.

Our last semester in school together was spent discussing her engagement and upcoming wedding. A summer wedding! I sent her some of my favorite design blogs to get her wedding wheels turning. I was so so incredibly excited for her!

We hadn't spoken in while. No phone calls since school ended. I am terrible on the telephone. I hate talking on the phone, so it was undoubtedly my fault. I did, however, have a few facebook-type talks with her, and all seemed fine. This morning, my "HEYYY WOMANNN" was counteracted by a "hey"... "how are you." I figured it was early morning, her curt response was nothing to get concerned over. When I asked her how she was, though, she said that she "could be better." SIRENS went off in my head. I immediately re-navigated to her facebook and her relationship status was hidden. You know what that means.

I am absolutely devastated for my friend. Devastated. She is so down on herself, feels completely undeserving, unmotivated, and unloved, when she is, in fact, amazing. She's beautiful, intelligent, and an absolute sweetheart. I wish I could fly over to her right now and tell her ridiculous stories, buy her some great books, surround her with pretty-smelling candles, and trendy jewelry and tasty hot chocolate (or all sorts of chocolate... just in case).

It's hard being a long distance friend. I tried to convince her to come visit me. That I'd take her out and show her a good time (I promised!). But she's so sad.

I guess this goes to show how everything in life is transient. You never know what tomorrow will bring. So keep your friends close and your best friends closer. Keep your family at an arms length and some good chocolates in your bed-side drawer. Prepare for the bad times, but hope for the best. And remember that no matter how much sadness comes your way, you have yourself to fall back on - a strong, independent, sharp-witted, bomb-shell of a woman (sorry boys, this post isn't for you).

And me! Love you, girl.

Sincerely,
A